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Name: Katherine
Birthday: 8/24/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: Faith, God, Love, Life, Bible, Reading, Friends, Family, Building into people, Listening, Music, Nature, Stars, Sunsets, MY FIANCE.. R.J. Nethaway
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| Give me a chance, I want to change my way
Cause I can't live here and look the same
Let me look up, let me look to Your face
And set me in my place, oh Lord
Set me in my place
The day is dawning and I am just rising
I pray my (strength, hope, love) won't fail
I pray my (strength, hope, love) won't fail
The day is dawning and I am just rising
I pray my (strength, hope, love) won't fail
My (strength, hope, love)
My (strength, hope, love) won't fail
My (strength, hope, love) won't fail
The day is dawning and I am just rising
I pray my (strength, hope, love) won't fail
My (strength, hope, love)
Give me a chance, I want to rise above
And grow in the knowledge of Your love
Help me to be someone who follows You
And make my heart like new
The day is dawning and I am just rising
I pray my (strength, hope, love) won't fail
I pray my (strength, hope, love) won't fail
The day is dawning and I am just rising
I pray my (strength, hope, love) won't fail
My (strength, hope, love)
My (strength, hope, love) won't fail
My (strength, hope, love) won't fail
The day is dawning and I am just rising
I pray my (strength, hope, love) won't fail
My (strength, hope, love)
Give me a chance, I want to change my ways
Cause I can't live here and look the same |
Jill Phillips; Kevin Max | | |
|  Autumn is the one in the colts sweatshirt.
 
In January my cousin Autumn passed away. Her death was a result of an overdose. 19 years old. Lately I have been thinking about her a lot and having some feelings of guilt. I'm praying about these convictions and I will get through this. I wanted to remind everyone to look out for each other. To be there for each other, especially when no one else is. Autumn was living in a trailer by herself for a few months before her death. She would ask for money, a ride, a place to live, and lots of other things. Well, over the last few years, I have given her money, lent her my car (returned damaged), and tried having a relationship with her. She definitely would take advantage of my inability to tell her no. I loved her so much and wanted so badly to help her. Towards the end, Autumn called me almost every night. She would tell me how much she just wished she was dead. I didn't believe that she would ever intentionally try to end it. That last week, she was admitted to a psych hospital because she was suicidal. She was so depressed, and I felt that I had done all I could for her. I reminded her that I was praying for her, and I felt that was enough. It got to the point that when she would call, I wouldn't answer because it was just too depressing for me to listen to her talk. When I got the call that Autumn had died and how, I was heart broken. I have dreams about Autumn, I think of Autumn all the time. I think of what I should of, or could've done... It's all over now... But I want to encourage you all to take care of each other. Sometimes there are instances when even our church family isn't there for us... I pray that we can all have someone to lean on. This song is an example of that and how the church wasnt' there for this girl. It makes me think of Autumn... She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she's going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see?
She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away
If judgement looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Can't see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her -Casting Crowns
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| I just wanted to post and update on my appointment yesterday. Dr. Wheeler, (the Ft. Wayne Doc.), did an ultrasound on me yesterday. I was really nervous, but I started feeling much better after the word, "beautiful", kept coming out of doc's mouth. He said that everything looks great with the baby and that,"he's definitley not withering away on a line". In other words, my baby is ahead of schedule as far as his size goes. In my case, this is a good thing with the risk factors of delivering early. My blood pressure was also excellent. The swelling is completely gone in my hands and feet, leaving the only risk factor as the protein. Dr. Wheeler told me that I have every reason to have developed pre-eclampsia by now, and that he doesn't know what has stopped it, especially with my protein levels being too high. He actually said that "risk factors to me must just be a bunch of bs". (lol) I said, nope, just a lot of prayer. He is very impressed with my condition. I told him that I have been feeling some pelvic pressure and he told me, that it's because the baby's head has dropped and is getting into position. This does not mean that He's on is way asap.. it just means he's getting ready. That is a sign that he could be coming early, but Dr. Wheeler is not worried at all. We have a big baby with a healthy heart beat, and good blood flow. He just wants me to keep the lines of communication open and to continue seeing my doctors in warsaw every 7 days or so. He will deliver my baby in Ft. Wayne if he comes before 36 weeks. I'm at 30 now. As for the steroid shots, I'll find out Friday the 18th if I need more or not. That's my next apointment in Warsaw. It was such a relief to see the little guy again and to hear that strong heart of his. At this point, I'm just really anxious to meet him and finally get him out! :) Kat | | |
| Mommy update: I am now at 29 weeks pregnant. I have been experiencing signs that I may deliver early. I have been spilling protein, slight high blood pressure, and some definite edema (swelling in feet, hands, and face). I've known this was the case since about 12 weeks, but as the countdown continues, the symptoms are getting greater. Yesterday I had to have a steroid-celestone shot to help mature the baby's lungs at a faster pace in case he comes soon, then he'll have a better chance of not having complications. I am to repeat the shot in 24 hours. You can't have it after 34 weeks so we are trying to get these doses in early as can be. Let me tell you, this was not an easy shot... the nurse comes walking from the OB department carrying this big thick, long needle, saying, "It's time". I thought, "Oh, lovely." She told me that it was a very strong medicine and thicker than most shots I've had, which may cause some burning as it goes in. Well, I had to have the shot in my hip and I'm still sore today in my lower back. It'll be worth it though. Next week I see the "High Risk" OBGYN in Ft. Wayne again. He's an excellent doctor. In fact, I prefer driving there to see him over staying in Warsaw to see my regular OBYGN. He's very down to earth and honest with me. I'll keep you posted. Baby update: Baby is doing good, good size for now, good heartrate, and defnitley a kicker:) I love it! I can't wait to see the little guy and hold him in my arms for the first time. I feel extremely blessed to have him already. Daddy update: RJ has been working, working, and working... He's such a hard worker, trying to get things done before the baby gets here. Besides his normal job, recently he put together a privacy fence for my sister and her husband in Indy, done some landscaping, trim work, helped my grandparents, built a bench and fixed my parent's pond and put a waterfall and fountain in it. (It's my new favorite spot outdoors). He probably feels like my caretaker... he does a good job at it. He misses work for every appointment, and was at my side last night when I had the awful shot. He's the best. My favorite thing that he's been working on and is pretty much finished with now, is the baby's room. It is so cute and he did a really good job on it. I love RJ with all my heart, and I couldn't ask for anyone better to spend the rest of my life with and to help raise my son. God is so good. He has a perfect plan for everything. I thank God for being married to such a Godly man. We have started helping out with the youth group at our church again. It so exciting to see RJ work with these young people. He's used to work with older teens, and now we are working with middle schoolers. So it's a little new for him, but he's a natural. This week, the 5th graders joined us for the first time just to experience it and see what it'll be like for next year. They'll be with us for the next 3 weeks, and then starting August full time. RJ met with the 5th grade boys, and I with the girls. They are such great girls and each of them were so talkative. That was very encouraging and I definitely am looking forward to beeing with these girls in August. I probably should get to work now. I just thought I'd give everyone an update, since I haven't in awhile. KAT | | |
| We are having a boy!! Due at the end of June! :) | | |
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